Between a Rock and...

Hello, I'm trying my darndest to get back into a blogging frame of mind. So I thought of something I really wanted to talk about..... My engagement.

Yes, I'm (as of yet) unofficially engaged to a very nice guy, who was not my boyfriend for the past several years, that's another story entirely. I say unofficially because I don't have a ring yet.

This is my dillema. I am happy to wait for however long it takes for him to save up and buy me a ring. However, I want to proclaim to the world that I've found a great guy and I'm going to spend the rest of my life with him and I don't feel right doing that unless I have a ring.

Why do I feel I need a ring? Society. Society says I need a ring to show off when I announce my engagement to my friends and family. They will ask to see the ring and I'll happily say I don't have one yet and immediately, apart from the incredible speed we're moving at, people will think something is completely off about our relationship, including his parents.

You see my parents are cool with my fiance and I because they too only dated for a month before their official engagement was announced. His parents (Well, him mom and step-dad--we don't talk about his biological father) have both remarried at least once and therefore are far more wary of our relationship, which is understandable.

I realize to the outside world we are moving at a breakneck pace, but to me I've never felt anything more right in my life. Which leads me back to this ring thing (ha!).

I want to wait for a ring, because I know that will give more people more time to get aquainted with my fiance and the idea that we're together. I would love to say I'm comfortable enough with myself that I don't need a ring to tell people I'm engaged, but I think it's another matter of length.

I know we won't get married until we both finish our undergrad (not only because we think it's best, but I'm pretty sure that's the easiest way to let his parents get used to the idea, and it's when my parents want me to wait until), which won't be until May 2014 at the earliest. SO the earliest possible wedding dates are in June of 2014. That's nearly a three year engagement, which isn't unheard of, but it's not exactly common either.

So I want to wait for a ring and yet I don't. I keep thinking of my grandmother's engagement ring I have back at my parents house and the best way to persuade him to use it, yet at the same time I want him to put his unique spin on our official engagement... It's all so complicated.

I want to proclaim that I have found Mr. Right to the heavens, and yet I know that I should wait, and kind of want to wait until the time is right which for some reason means a ring is around my finger.

In any case, I'm glad I do have time to plan though, weddding are complicated!